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hello earthlings. I haven't been blogging since .... I don't know how many days back. I.AM.SO.FUGGING.HAGGARD.AND.TIRED.AND.SLEEPY. I think I'm gonna crash tmr after school, go home and sleep my fugging biggie big ass out making it bigger until maybe Saturday afternoon ? Hoho So I woke up at 2 p.m today, received some messages, sorry if I replied late, I was sleepingzxzx. My eyebags are goddamn it frigging horrible Phyl said I can put baby kangaroos inside them already -.-" TVRP was A-OKAY :D Advertising next *Bangs head on table repeatedly* I don't fugging know what the hell I am supposed to study because studying the whole book is just so frigging impossible, seriously. I'm craving for guuaavvvvvaaaaaaaas. OH! yay mom's cutting watermelons ! heeheehuhuhu yum !

Lotta things been happening lately. Issues after issues, matters after matters, problems after problems, yet no solution -.- Went to town after school yesterday after a few hours of chilling at PS Starbucks with the rest. Went to eat Ayam Penyet at Lucky Plaza in which we met some bloody retards with PERCH faces -.-" so yes, we walked around and saw some good bargains. HEEHEEE so def I'm grabbing some stuff I;ve already had in mind after sch on Friday. Okay which means plan ruined, won't be going home straight after school to sleep -.- eh I'm feeling damn tired lah, I feel like crashing NOW ! -.-"

Tash's open house on Sunday, going w Nazzozi. Idk why the hell must he be paiseh -.-" Meeting him on Saturday for a little bit of shopping. and I owe him ice-cream for his so does not make any sense riddle -.-" hmm, so yala. i'm still frigging tired -.-

You left me hanging loose, with big question marks above my head.

And now you came back, saying sorry.

Giving me more question marks.

I don't know what your motives are, after all the things you've done.

Maybe you regretted, but I doubt that's your move.

Maybe you didn't even regret it, you're just saying sorry for the fun of it.

I won't accept your apology, neither will I even ask for an explaination.

You won't listen to mine and you judged me through their perceptions and stories.

So neither will I listen to yours, or even bother asking.

I remembered

We made promises to break all ties with each other.

But I was surprised you still keep my number.

And even have the cheek to text and say sorry.

What made you think that I'll accept your apology ?

What made you think that your sorry can soften me up ?

I don't give in easily you know, I've been thru all these shits a dozen times.

So get your thinking right, if you think you can easily play me around just by another sorry,

Then you better get in your right frame of mind.

I don't understand

Why now ?
When everything is going fine in my life,

You came back trying to ruin everything for me again.

Come on, I have people who loves me and people whom care for me

So listen properly, I DO NOT F.ING NEED YOU.

I'm not desperate, like all other girls you've known.

I have my own moralty and dignity

You toyed around with it, don't expect me to accept you ever again back in my life with a sorry

I'm worth more than that sorry of yours.

Get lost.

PR is def. driving me nuts, and all other exams on wed and fri. pure shitznitx. i cant wait for it to be over so I can start on my GP ASAP. so yes, following mom to IKEA later ^^v heeeheeeee yeayea ikea-ing :)

and yes, my brain cells are drained and I bet its wrinkled now and looks like dried chilli -.- plus, nazzozi's riddle that so does not make sense is driving me a bit nuts. HAHA seriously man naz, i wrote it down and tried to figure it out, BUT IT MAKE NO SENSE AT ALL ! WHERE DID THE 10 CENTS GO ?! you cheatterrr consperm got cheat code -.- nvm, I still won't give up because I have to blanja you ice cream if I cant figure it out, but nvm lah. Ice cream only, HAHAHA CHEG -.-

so yesyes, shopping w nazzozi is postponed to this coming saturday. AND F. THIS PAY BETTER COME IN THIS FRIDAY OR ELSE THE WHOLE OF SUNTEC WILL TURN UPSIDE DOWN -.- knn big time. so yes, yesterday night was a v.depressive night. I don't know why either -.- I just feel so suffocated.

OK F. LAH KNN IM SO F. PISSED F.KNN G&D

hello little people, am so damn fustrated right now. am gg for work later, starts at 5 end al 11. they better not make me stay till 2 for OT or else the whole Suntec will turn upside down. DAMN IT. I have no idea either why the hell am I getting so worked up. Maybe because my ppd's low & I can't reply to some people -.- What a reason, I know. BUT STILL. !!! . and maybe because I have work tmr also, from 5-11, again -.-

actually, am going out with Nazzozi tmr. planned to do a little shopping and ikea-ing. but then my pay's coming in next week. OH I REMEMBERED WHY I'M SO F. UP BIG TIME, BECAUSE MY PAY WILL COME IN NEXT FRIDAY. SHITZNITX BIG TIME MAN. KXJGLAJFRTNR !!! oh my goooodddd this is the worst day of my life. okay actually not the worst day of my life -.- BUT STILL, damn it big time aakkeeehhh ?? bull. i was just being all so excited abt gg to ikea, again, because i want/need to get some stuff over there for my oh-so-boring room now. talking about my room, i need someone who can draw my wall for me. just a wall, not all four walls. so anyone interested please do tell me.

raya was nothing, well for some people of course ah fun. but well, most of my aunts are overseas, some at new jersey and stuff. so yeah, didn't do raya-ing THAT much. PLUS, I'm having exams so Mom's kindda not allowing me to raya along, AGAIN like last year -.- so yes, first day of raya, ate like a pig. eat sleep eat sleep -.- i just can't resist gran's cooking my ohhh myyy yum yum, whatever. gees, i don't feel like gg to work now. my god. plus, i am gg home alone, again because the rest are having OT i think. so yes, life's pretty much dull on both sides *megasigh*

next movie to watch, house bunny. hohoho the trailer looks kinnda funny hahha. oh && stg caught my eye on the tv yesterday, "rock and rolllaa" weeehuuuu -.- there's so many stuff i wanna watch. hehehe and idc, i better go find a movie marathon partner soon.

hell yeah the weather is goddamn it hot today, but the clouds are pretty, so fair enough. BUT STILL, i hate sweating -.- seriously, i don't feel like going to work. idk how many times i've repeated this already but really. they made me work like a mad dog all day forcing me to stay for OT even tho I screamed I do not want to, and now the pay's coming in next week, ? KNNBCCB BIG TIME IM ALREADY IN DESPERATE NEED OF MONEY, BULLS.

damn it, somebody, calm me down.

Hello babies, firstly SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all muslims people and sorry to those whom I've hurted be it on purpose or not, sorry for the vulgarities I spouted 24/7.So yes, I just got home. From Ikea, accompanied mom to get some last minute stuff and we waited 2 bloody goddamn hours for the f. taxi and we got none, so mom called abang noh to pick us up. Thank god there's him. Bought this extremely cute heeled shoes for Raya :) Teeheee :D I can't believe I'm like, actually falling in love with a high-heeled shoe, I think this is the first time I didn't go against wearing it ? because it's so cuuutteeee :D Oh god, I still got Journalism to study *bangs head on the table*

Listening to Radiohead, damn orgasmic. Oh my, gives me the shiverrr. He is way beyond amazing. and the show by coldplay, live in toronto - fix you is way beyond awesome, i swear over my sexy ass :D Hohoho tomorrow raya sial, idk if i should be excited or happy or bored or sad or what -.-

Met Nazzozi again yesterday, to return his black book. & as usual, I was late -.- (To Naz: I told you my drawing was crap -.-) So yes, we catched Mamamia yesterday, at 4.15 which ended just in time to find seats at banquet for break fast. I realized something, we're ALWAYS and forever craving for something but we end up not finishing the food -.- It's either 1/3 or 2/3 finished, wasted sialz -.- So yes, the temptation to sing along the songs in Mamamia was higher than mount everest but still, I kept myself shut or else it would be damn embarassing. HAHAHA We fell in love with all the songs and Naz is so semangat he downloaded the songs and sent me, thank you naz :D not wrong to be so semangat lah kan. So yes, walked to central and around j.w for nothing. find his root beer and i swear there were alot of banglas, naz's best friend teeehheee ^^v and I'm not tired ouuhggaaayy boy, you're the one who's tired ^^v so yes, sat somewhere around 700+ and talked, walked off around 9.30. thank you naz for walking back all the way to jp with me, because i insisted not to take the bus :) i feel sorry and guilty because i made you walk w the 2 heavy bottles. sorrry big time okeh ? :)

so that's pretty much all, and it's raya ! g.day everybody :)

life used to be in black and white

watching everything pass by

wasting every minute accomplishing nothing

wondering what was the purpose of your existence

waiting for a miracle to happen

waiting for hope to make its entrance

hope didn't appear, as expected

but something else did

bringing back colours into your life

making you realize that you exist for a purpose, a positive one

he brought back everything into life, unexpectedly

but

should you instill the trust, or shall you not ?

for fear that history will repeat itself

making yourself look like a dumb-o being fooled, yet again

it takes courage

it takes time

to go through this one more time

but

whenever he's around

the atmosphere changes

you feel safe, you feel everything's under control

you just feel right.

hey yo darlings, ah gess i got only a couple of minutes to blog before going off to grans, yet again -.- breaking fast there. okay so yes, i'm going nuts studying for journalism because most of the topics that old man told us to concentrate on isn't in the book like the hour glass format and the diff between featured news story and don't know what else story -.- but lucky i borrowed this book from school library and it has most of the topics that old faggot is talking about, sorry padman but seriously, you're driving me and the whole class up and down and around the whole 4 walls. shiiiit i don't feel like gg to grans, because im running outta time to study. AND AND YES BABY, LYKKE LI'S SONGS ARE DAAAMN ORRGGAAASSSMMMIIIIICCC ^^v

okay so anyway, met nazzozi ytd. we tapau-ed food and cabbed to mount faber. both of us end up w the same food, mee goreng -.- i was craving for indian food yesterday i don't know whyy, and i wanted to buy the rojak but in the end didn't, but nevermind. and so, we ended up with 2 drinks. no actually he had 2. but lucky my drinks turned out nice, unlike yours naz HAHAHA ok im so bad, but wtv :D THE PROTION OF THE MEE GORENG IS A LOOOTTTTTTTTTT so both of us ended up not finishing the thing. but right, mee goreng w/o taugey is weird, way beyond weird HEEHEE ^^v
his macdonald's caramel iced latte turned out like daaamn bitter, prangai damn harbourfront ouhgaayy HAHA

so yes, the sunset was waayyy beeyyoonnddd fantabulous i was v.happy w the scenery. because it's damn peaceful, and pure and serene. really, once in a while you gotta take a break from all these human traffic congestion ya know. aah happy evening happy evening, made me appreciate god's creation even more. wonderful ya know ^^v so yes, we shifted place after the sunset because the mosquitoes were killing me. naz said because i didnt drink milk -.- is that true ? i dont know, must go do some research. teeeheee :) oh oh, and while watching the sunset and talking abt some stuff i cant rmbr what, there was this phtographer who took a picture of us, should have asked for her email and demand (CHEG, DEMAND SIA HAHA) the photos from her. but whatever. I HATE THE LIZARDDSSSS AND MOST OF THEM ARE BLACCCKK, purely utterly revolting. *pukes*

so yes, we tracked down the rail. it was damn scary i swear f. big time i didnt dare tracked but in the end i agreed because there were 2 other trackers in front of us. they must be damn familiar w the route mangx. but shitznitx man, it's UTTER DARKNESS and the trees were surrounding us, but still, we made it out alive ^^v we headed to vivo for ice-cream, because naz was craving for ice cream badly, haha, went to sit by the "sea" at lvl.1, at kachang like some mat banglas. i didnt know you can get full by eating kacang, but he does.

oh & thanks naz for the saturday company, i had a great day really and it doesnt matter if you talk to much HEEHEE ^^v

P.S: NAZZOZI, IM DONE W YOUR BLACK BOOK. the drawing's utter nonsense ah, but..(NO BUTS! HAHA) whatever.

things got worst

aside from the problems you're facing

humans added on to them

giving you alot to think about

you feel like giving up

hope vanished, world starts crumbling

everything happening in less than a millisecond

you feel like drowning

you feel like asking mother earth you eat you up

right there and then

no light to guide you, no direction for you to start venturing

BEK BEK BEK work is driving me and my foot soles way beyond nuts ! ok, idk whtf the "bek bek bek" at the starting of the paragraph was for. HAHAHA SOUNDS FUNNY LIKE F. HAHAHA ok stop, damn lame -.- Lucky there's not work tomorrow, wooheeee :) and I DIE DIE thought today is Thrusday. I dont know why lah, tsk. My mind's been off track these couple-a days. For the past 2 days, I only got 2 hours of sleep -.- BAIK OR WHAT AH, and soon my eyebags can be folded into 3 just like those ah-mahs and ah-peks eyebags -.- i can't stop biting my nails, disgusting i know, but whatever sial. YAY YAY MONEY NEXT WEEK HEEHEE :D eh but knn manx, they made me run up and down and the whole of Suntec more than 60 times i swear just for small little things. AND NOW MY LEG AND FOOT GODDAMN IT PAINFUL LAH I SWEAR BIG TIME. and the racers were making a hell lot of noise during their tryouts just now. I was suppose to finish work at 4 but they dragged me for OT till 7. DAMN KNN BIG TIME. sorry ah fad, if you have to listen to wtc i rant just now :D so yes, i went home alone like one knn pathetic loser because the rest wanted to watch the tryouts -.- AH SHIT MY NAIL IS PEELING OFF ZOMGX AND OMG ITS MIDNIGHT ALREADY SO FAST AH ?! KK BYEBYE

P.S: i'm bored tmr, saturday, anyone out ?

It was the moment I've waited for in life

Where hope appeared bringing miracles for a change

Just as I was about to lift off the weight of the world

that I was carrying throughout my life

The light fades away, vanished slowly

Leaving me behind, back to square one.

Ya know, I'm dead bored sitting at home, studying my way thru until my ass bleeds on the chair -.- This is the worst week of my life. And I WANT exams to be over AS SOON AS POSSIBLE man. I can't take this any second longer ! This is mental torture ! OMG *bangs head on the table*

Lucky I'm soooo done with PR, I'm 1/3 thru Advertising and TVRP and I haven't even touch on Journalism when it's the first paper, which falls on teh second day of Hari Raya -.- Yea, pretty much fun ah. BIG TIME KNN MAN.

Work tomorrow from 10 - 5. Well at least there's work to keep my time occupied besides studying. I feel like going to the library, but dang, I am so f. lazy to do, seriously. I don't feel like going out at all. But at the same time, I'm bored w staying at home. DAMN WTF RIGHT. Hahs, meeting Effa later to break fast at JP, I AM SOOOO CRAVING FOR THE TOM YUM MAAANNN and accompany Namie cut her hair, for Raya i suppose.

FAUZI, YOU STILL OWE ME BUBBLE TEA AAAHH. He said he wants to blanja me bubble tea for no reason. Heeeee :) And since he can't find any C2 for raya, we plan to wear green together this raya outing. And yesterday night he threatened me because I made fun of his new pimple, he say he won't raya together w me because he abang2 already, because he's tall and I'm so short still like small kid :( HAHAHA HE BIG TIME KNN MAN THAT PIMPLE BOY HAHAHA Don't raya, then don't raya ah. I also don't care.

Anyways, I'm missing some people TERRIBLY. Plus, I didn't online yesterday so I didn't get to talk to some people much :( FUGG MAN On Monday I slept at 3 a.m to finish up the notes so I slept all the way till the next day, just in time to break fast. Pau calls me babi -.- KNN I don't knw why I'm so fugging tired man, seriously. I tried waking up but I can't. My eyes just kept closing back and I didn't even hear ANY SOUND even when the house is goddamn fugging noisy when sisters came back home from school until my mom told my sister: "KAU GI KEJOT KAKAK KAU TU, TGK DIE MAMPOS TAK" -.- big wtf marnx. HAHAHA

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doing so much for the common good, yet so hard to be understood.
AMELIA
DIPLOMA IN MASSCOM, MDIS
SEVENTEEN

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