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Listening to: Still Fly - The Devil Wears Prada

Mood: Pissed/F.Up/F.Irritated

shitznitx. i'm not in a good mood these few days. I don't f.know why either. yes i feel like sitting at some quiet place and just stone for hours and hours w some good music -.-" am at gran's house now. she's alone because aunts and bibik went to the hospital to take care of grandad. yes, when i arrived she was cleaning the bird's cage so i decided to help her. she looked so cute trying to put the apples inside the cage, LOL. Anyway, one of the birds died. Yes, grandma said she wanted to clean the birds and then she found one of them just lied in the cage, frozen. Anyway, meeting Effa later to eat at Tong Seng's (tho I'm not fasting, hoho). I'm so bored. And I need money badly, but unfortunately life's being unfair. It has always been unfair, but whatever. So I'm searching for a job as well later. Anyway, if any of you blog readers have job lobang please tell me, asap. Thank you.

Charlie, I OFFICIALLY HATE YOU. because you are the most irritating person I've ever met in this world. and you are so bloody damn oblivious everytime i talk to you, you make me feel like killing you, seriously. everybody feels like that when they talk to you. & please, your ego. cut it down dude. mine can be as high as yours, so stop defending yourself and twisting and turning the whole story and accusing people even if there is no link. you make me want to call you a bitch you know -.- and oh, do you know you can be sued for taking photos of people w/o their consent and posting it in your blog ? so STOP blogging about me and begging me to unblock you from your real life. fat hope, i will not do so -.-

i don't know why i'm feeling so evil today

do not ask me why either

maybe it's the aftermath of listening to too much hxc

-.-

internet connection at home is being a total bitch i feel like smacking the whole pc set -.- i talked to mom about the medan trip and she allowed. but i have to wait for dad to come back home from serawak, which is 2 weeks later then i can get the flight ticket. have to ask tash when they're getting the ticket. gees, idk if i really should go, but they asked me a couple of times about it, so yeah.

am going out with R next week. he told me i should visit punggol some day because there's this extremely nice place where the clouds are like fairytales and this big field of green green grass and the sunset is damn beautiful. so he asked me when I'm free so I told him next week. I'm damn occupied this week with family outing tmr, can't afford to escape this time round for i have escaped family outings with cousin a thousand times -.- yes, i can't wait to go to punggol, mainly because I want to see how pretty it is. yes, R commented I looked pure -.- so i said "because i am pure, ?" ok what kind of shit reply is that ? f. shitznitx

i really don't know

sometimes i myself am confused

and i'm sick and tired of going thru the whole process again

with fear that history will repeat itself

and make myself look so dumb

help.

chatted with dearest XY ytd and f. i miss talking to her, all the crap talk and reminiscing the moments in sec school. HAHA XY and her ah lien days. damn it la, XY I MISS YOU A LOT. oh geee, zu and jane's been busy w work. and everybody else is so busy w their own thing we can't even meet up. the only people that has been chatting constantly with me on MSN is hanis jazil, my dear friend who bullshits w me and discriminate some people w me, mamat pauzee (fauzi), my dear friend who bullshits along w me as well and my listening ear, khai, we can go on and on talking about _ _ _ _ AHAHAHA ! :D and some other people. hooooyaaahh oiii. i miss them maannn. too bad i can't really bull-crap in my current school, just am not comfortable w some people and the atmosphere is just so goddamn bloody weird. oh my. meeting HJ and XY next week for dinner :D yoohhaaaa :D hehe then can crap like some f. idiots, LOL.

someone irritated the hell outta me. and idk man, everything he does or says just irritate me outta my wits ! maybe he's trying to be nice after all that he has done to me for the past 3,4 years ? but whatever it is, i've had enough of it and i don't want myself to be fooled or make myself look so dumb to believe him. damn it la, at some point of time, my hatred for guys/men is just like the volcano erupting, and at some other point of time, i can't help but meet some new boys. well life is contradicting most of the times. and i can't be bothered saying sorry anymore, pfft. -.- don't think by saying a bunch of "sorry's" will make my heart melt and soften me up. and don't think the sweet talks will work. i am sooooo over and done with those stuff.

maybe there's still hope

well at least best friends say there is

i just hope there is still hope left

i shouldn't give up

i won't.

have a good weekend ahead people :D

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doing so much for the common good, yet so hard to be understood.
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DIPLOMA IN MASSCOM, MDIS
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